I suppose there are several ways to respond to someone you have had meaningless sex with. You could either choose to never see this person again, be friends with this person, be weird around this person or a combination of the latter two. The last guy I slept with chose the latter two. It was not fun. I don't think I would ever want to be in a relationship with this guy, but hearing him talk about other girls and seeing him actively ignoring me was bothersome. I was emotionally attached and his avoiding me felt like rejection. If he didn't avoid me I might still be okay with casual sex, so it may just be this one guy. Then again, I could also choose to never have sex outside of a relationship and avoid this feeling altogether.
I vow not to ever sleep with this guy again. Every time he comes into town I sleep with him. The unfortunate thing is, afterward, he isn't comfortable around me. We're not really friends. We never gave each other a chance to be friends because of the sex. I sincerely hope this changes. I will always be thankful to him for helping me restore my confidence after my boyfriend left me, but the awkwardness has to stop. I no longer wish to put myself in a position to be rejected in this way, so the casual sex cruise will need to sail out of my personal revolution.
Authentically: Remorseful
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